I know it's my OCD, but I can't sit in a cafe unless...

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...my back is to a wall, the door is in view, the seating is a booth in the corner and my revolver is laying on my lap under the napkin.
 
Saw "Public Enemies" with my brothers and I liked it. Might have even loved it if the two kids sitting behind me didn't talk all through it. They hated it and left 45 minutes into it when Johnny Depp didn't act funny like a pirate. Love what Michael Mann has done with shooting his films on video, but for me this isn't the kind of film to do that on. Too many modern styles, music, handheld video camera work in a period film didn't work for me. But I did like the movie a lot. The history. The detail. Just didn't love it.
 
If only you could come by, pick me up, blindfold me and take me to that secret hideout that only you know... Then what would we do? You whisper your instructions and guide me over steps and trails I can't see. Guided by your loving touch.
 
Wish you'd go on a Ghost Hunt with me, because I think my pants are haunted!
 
I know there's a ghost in them and I think it's me. Am I here? Am I happy? This may be the best life I've ever had. But I want more and I want it now.
 
Imagine you woke up with the amazing power to get inside someones body and possess it, to see, hear and feel from inside their body, like in "Being John Malkovich." You can live their life and control them! Now, who would you want to be and what would you make them do?
 
Already, I feel I have too many voices controlling my life for those that want to be me, and I feel I'm being controlled by someone or something at a great distance. There's a weight of some invisible tether that sends and receives signals in a language I can't decipher. I'm here, but I'm only observing, locked in a diving bell and I can only feel your touch through these thick numbing gloves.