I hate waiting! Seems my lot in life is to always be waiting on something! Waiting for a girl, waiting in line, waiting at the Doctor's office, waiting for the weekend, waiting for a movie to open, waiting to fall asleep, waiting for my ship to come in…

Maybe the drugs I'm taking are making me antsy. My skin feels like it's crawling off my body. I caught a scene from the film, and "The Quatermass Xperiment" where the character's flesh becomes its own thing after trip through space.

I've been reading up on OSHA's mold, fungus, allergens in the workplace and because of the information, I've come to the conclusion I will have to buy a spacesuit to survive. Scientists are making plans to sent astronauts on a one way mission to Mars. They go there and never come back! I have to figure out how to go to work and not deteriorate from the fungus that is eating away at my flesh. I love the job and the people there, but is my health worth the nearly minimum wage pay that's already being eaten up by my medical bills?

Since the temperature change I bought an inexpensive black jacket and hoodie, but after visiting a friend I noticed it became a fur coat after static collected stray hairs from her shedding cats. It's difficult to breathe. I need to find a place to live that has no carpeting or anything that contains carpet fibers. I'm not one of those people that need a pet. I love animals, but I don't need to live with them.

I drove around and looked at apartments but I know that my credit is so bad that getting a space will be difficult. I can't stand the idea of throwing money away on rent. I wish I could find a small piece of land and build one of those prefab houses. One of those cool architecturally designed modern prefab small homes.

If I could I'd love to live underground maybe in something like a abandoned missile silo. I would like my space to be small, easy to clean, something manageable, something to keep me from hoarding items I don't need, but larger than say a coffin. I like the idea of it being underground because the temperatures are always regulated and it's insulated.

Who am I kidding? I currently… barely make enough to rent a safe apartment. I wish there was some place I could stay for free just to save up my money. Maybe I could find an abandoned building and squat for a while. Maybe find an absentee landowner who is needing someone to house sit in exchange for free room and board. I wish I owned a van! It's hard to live below your means when you don't make very much and have nothing, but then when you have nothing you are capable of anything!