Spent the night at an old friend's log cabin. I slept so deeply. Fell right off. Great dreams began percolating. Suddenly I felt someone licking me on the back of my neck and I turned over and it was my friend's dog! It had jumped up in the bed.

My dreams, after my heart stopped pounding so hard, were amazing. Best dreams ever. No fear. All pleasant. I was a winner in every dream. I was happy. I was loved. I had no worries. I was perfect. Maybe all these changes have helped me inside. Rattled something loose and shook things into place. An adjustment. An alignment. Visited old friends and saw how things had changed since I was here 25 years ago. Things have built up. Familiar buildings have rotted and collapsed. Trees have grown. Kudzu has rioted. People have changed. I have changed.

SUNDAY, AUGUST 08, 2010

Went with some friend's to a church service of bikers, musicians and cool sweet Southern folk. The sermon was laugh out loud funny. It was easy on the ears and mind and good for the soul. It seemed directed toward me. It had me worried. How would God know what I'm going through? Does he read this blog? Is he my Facebook friend? Does he know I'm an Atheist? Does he believe in me?