Giving this some thought, using what information I have available, I believe things really won't change. I will still be homeless unless some great change happens in my career. I believe my wife will move somewhere with her two girls, hopefully in a moderate climate so that sleeping in a car or park won't be too bad for me. If she doesn't move, I most likely will, and to a much larger market where jobs might be slightly better to find.

I doubt that I will see her much unless it's through Skype and emailed photos. We will talk on the phone for a bit in the morning and maybe right before she goes to sleep. I've honestly never had a relationship quite like it. Maybe it's a new kinda thing. The vanguard of a new kind of relationship! Before, if I was involved with a girl, we'd talk all the time! You couldn't keep us apart! 

However, this time I'm involved with a woman that has grown children that she needs to take care of, so with her very important and strenuous career and her girls, the time-pie is split up pretty well. I don't mind taking a backseat even if it's in another car faraway. I love her relationship with her kids. They all get along great and I'd rather just be an observer, or even hear about it all later. I can keep up with people on their Facebook pages, so no actual contact is needed.

This idea would have troubled me before, in fact I would never have gotten involved with either a divorced woman, a woman with a child from a previous marriage, or a woman that smoked, or was a convicted felon, but some of my silly standards have dropped. I guess having been in love with her all these years might have something to do with it.

There were years and years that I was in love with her but didn't know where she was or could even see her other than the little photo of her I carried with me, so going days on end without seeing her now is nothing. Just seeing a comment notification on some link I'm posted on Facebook is enough for me.

People say, "Jerry, why even be married if you're not gonna see her?" Well, I'll see her on weekends for conjugal visitations and days when one or more of her children get sick!

Married people see each other everyday, sleep with each other every night and soon grow tired of each other. That won't happen with us as far as I know! And if it does... Well, we both know how to get a divorce.

I don't want us to share bank accounts, I don't want her to take my last name, I don't want her to wash my clothes with hers. I want her to be as free as a woman can be after going through all that she's been through. I don't want to add anymore baggage onto her. She's had enough last names, shared bank accounts, laundry… I will be a low impact husband, I hope. My carbon footprint in her life should hopefully be very small and barely noticeable next to the fossil footprints I see.

I tell some people how it might be and they look aghast, but a few nod their heads knowingly and say, "I wish I had that, man." 

Her sister asked me if I was ready to be a "Step-Dad" and I thought, "What's there to do?" These kids of hers are all grown up! Their minds are set! They're ready to rock! There's nada I can show them, or would they care to see it. They've seen it all before and I'm just another old dude they can ignore or make fun of. They're experts there with that skill-set!

So this marriage thing is gonna be a cinch! In less than 75 Days we'll find out. Maybe you can come ask me how it's going after a while, you can find me down under those stairs on that concrete bench next to the basement of the soup kitchen, I'll be the one holding a flower, or if I can get free wifi, you can email me and ask.