Got an unsweetened iced tea instead of a rum and coke. Got down on my knee to tie my shoelace instead of propose marriage. Fantasized about a girl I've loved instead of going to the titty bar. All these choices in life make it so hard to go on! I'm gonna drug up and go to bed early and hope I have good dreams! Can you recommend a drug that I could take that might help me ignore negative people?

Thinking of running away for a few weeks to see if my head clears and I figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life. I hope I get some real answers. Maybe there will be good ideas with some real possibilities. People tell me all the time, "If you aren't happy where you are, you won't be happy anywhere," and I don't think that's all that true with me, because I have been happy in certain places. Travel awakens things in me. It opens me up somehow. Does anyone know what I'm talking about?