I was in a very weird mood today! I was trying not to live in the past, but I've been having troubles with horrible dreams. The dreams obviously mean I'm going through some heavy processing. They all have elements of my past. People I used to know. Things I did in the past. Things I wish I could change. The dreams are horrible examples of my worst fears realized. I want them to go away so bad!

There was a time I used to want to have kids of my own, but something has changed. Now I think my sperm was meant other things, like tissue, abdomens, backs, open mouths, faces...

Just got my ass pinched again tonight! I hate that! She acted all shocked and said, "Oh, I thought you were someone else." Riiiight. I guess it's sweet, isn't it? Maybe she wanted to surprise her man and instead it was me. But I have a nervous nature and when she did it, I was so startled I almost farted. That would have taught her a lesson!

Last night I dreamed a Facebook Friend ask me to marry her! Like that could ever happen! The dream should have been a happy one, but it was another nightmare. I don't know what I did to make myself dream such awful things, but it's driving me crazy. Am I paying off some bad karma? Did I do something in a past life that needs fixing? I need some past life regression, get some names and numbers, hop in a time machine, go back in time, kick some friggin' ass and straighten this shit out!