Yay! It's my Birthday!!! Very excited about this as...
...the last time I had one was probably about 12 Months ago!
Sometimes these things are sad for me, because thinking back over the time since my last B'Day, I realize how little I've accomplished, How little I've learned, How little fortune I've accumulated that might ease a future financial need.
But those thoughts help me not!
I see now I've lived more time than I probably have left, unless science can find a reversal to the aging process that will be available for a low cost. Then I feel as unlikely as that is to happen, I should plow on and race through these remaining years with a gusto only seen by one making the best of a bad situation on a horrible blind date.
I felt squashed by the weight of all the unused time ahead and of a life not lived to its fullest, but now somehow a pressure is lifted because I've reached an easy current in the river where I will drift and not fight against it. Also I've arrived at that moment in quicksand where I can stop flailing about and comfortably lay back, relax and said, "Fuck it!"
